Whatever in bad language.

I have a male friend. Ok, I'm not in the same class with him. I have a strange relationship with him. In internet, we can and always speak like we knew each other since we were babies. But, in the fate, our relationship is very awkward. If we meet, never speak, or at least smile.

I don't know if I like him, because the thing I know just Dimas. Maybe just more affection to him at all. It must be another like to him.

And yesterday, I knew. That he and his friend have special relationship. I don't know why inside my middle chest is sick. But, no tears like when I know Dimas and his friend become couple. Like I said, it must be another like to him. Maybe I just don't want to lose his standard affection to me. Just that.