Wishes

Maybe, there are just some of you who know these.

First, I regret of something. (11 people)
Second, I hated some things in my school. (7 people)
Third, I miss my past. (1 person)
Fourth, I’m too kind. (1 person)
Fifth, I hate to be alone. (None)


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Now, I’m in holiday. And I’m in my old house. A house I already had entire my life. I love this house, although it always struck by flood. But, I think, I miss the time when I ran up-down pass the stairs to save my things. Yeah, I miss it.

And it has been one year since I leaved this house for my school. I’ve learn many things in this one year. Learn to stubborn, learn to fight, and learn to be an easy-going girl. Something I truly happy to have this year, just about I have someone to become my nii-nii. But, through my days, I have something wedge my heart.

Do you know what is that is?

Are you really want know?

The fact is…


I want to live just like one year ago before I entered junior high school. I want to spend my days peacefully. I want to be surrounded by my true friends. I want to have happy days with someone I love. I REALLY WANT TO HAVE THOSE!!!

Fight for next

Fight? That's a incredible event if I have one. A really combat fight, of course with I'm the winner. Ohohohoho

But, next year, I'll be the 8th grade. Which means that the next 9th is the 8th now. Buh, that's so disgusting. They'll torture us, they'll act as the best leader, they'll dare say sorry to us after the voting. How jerk they are.

However, a lot of my troubles is because the 8th grades. Just a ball-fat witch, cynic-moron whore and rotten-woman bitch. I'll have no fear again towards them. NEVER. As long as nii-nii stand beside me, and anyone else too, I'll fight them.

I'll. If I have to, I will kick their ass.

Gua cinta Indonesia part 1

GUA CINTA INDONESIA! GUA INDONESIA TULEN! GUA CINTA RAMBUT HITAM GUA, YANG UDAH DIKASIH BOKAP NYOKAP GUA! GUA CINTA RAMBUT YANG UDAH 2 TAHUN GUA PANJANGIN! GUA SUKA GAYA RAMBUT GUA! GUA GAK MAU DIROMBAK ULANG!!!!

Past

What I want to see, is the old home. What I want to smeel, is the cheerful air in the night. What I want to hear is the laugh for some years.

What I want to taste, is the sense of togetherness. What I want to touch, is the hands of friendship. What I want to feel, is the sweat of happiness.

What I want to gain, is the shine of passion. What I want to do, is change something I regret. What I want to have is re-past.

What I loss, is the heart of smooth. What I regret is the betrayal of love. What I hate is the dark me. What I keep, is the memories from the past.

The reason to why I hate

Jujur-jujur aja. Gue gak suka (atau benci sejadi-jadinya) sama kakak kelas. Kenapa? Banyak! Yang paling umum adalah kesenioritasannya yang ketinggian. Dan lagi, gue ada beberapa kakak kelas yang pengen gue tendang bokongnya sampe mental ke segitiga Bermuda.

-Piip piip piip piip piip......
Karena mereka bener-bener pelanggar HAM. Udah jelas-jelas di Indonesia ini, ada hukumnya yang bilang "Orang boleh memilih organisasinya sendiri", eh, mereka malah maksa2 gua. Gue inget seinget-ingetnya, gue dikatain dan dihina (baca : direndahkan) dengan kata2 "Di antara lo bertiga, lo deh (tu orang nunjuk gua) yang paling gak berbakat." Pengen gue tendang mukanya. Brengsek? Lebih!

Udah gitu, berapa bulan yg lalu, gue keluar. Nah, mereka tuh seakan2 maksa gua balik lagi. Salah satunya bahkan mengintimidasi (baca : bullying) gua (baca posting 14 Maret 2009). Dan lagi, kemaren2, ada yg ngirim sms, ada pertemuan dan gue wajib ikut meski gue udah keluar. BUSSEET! Lu bener-bener pengen gua bantai kayak di Higurashi No Naku Koro Ni! (kalo Elfen Lied gimana cara menggal palanya?)


-Si Brengsek
Oke, yang ini gue ada salah sedikit. Tapi, tapi tapi, dia juga salah! Brengsek sekali dia ngatain gue f*ck?! Fitnah lu dasar! Gue ngomong tuh biasa. Gak usah mutar balikin fakta dong! Emang gue kalo ngomong ama lu mesti selembut dan selemah Putri Solo haaah?? Kalo aja lu gak ngomong gitu, paling gak masih ada rasa hormat gua sama lu. Tapi kita gak boleh mengandai-andai (kata kepsek gua). Kenyataannya, gak ada respect gua sama dia sekarang.

Dan di antara sejibun kakak kelas itu, 4 orang aja yang gue respect. Mereka semua cowok, punya hati yang baik walaupun 'autis' :D Gua rasa, berlaku kata-kata "Jika jahat, laki2lah yang terahat. Jika baik, laki2lah yang terbaik."

The reason to run

Why I ran? Even though no limit time, even though the sun shines and very hot. Why I ran? Because if I run, I can feel like Di-kun with me. Just like I was running to chase him. Just like when we played and laugh together. He was the one who taught me to run with whole of my spirit.

What I....

I didn't see anything, except the footsteps on the sand.

I didn't do anything, except run to the past.

I didn't feel anything, except pain.

I didn't hear anything, except the other laughs.

I didn't remember anything, except nii-nii and Di-kun.

I didn't want anything, except peace.

Ya, sir?

Cuma satu kalimat aja yang gue bisa ucapkan.

"Must I stay in despair?"

Ironi Hidup

Gue baru baca kasus-kasus di dunia. Diikuti dengan pemahaman yang sepaham-pahamnya. Au dah kok gue jadi lebih berkeperimanusiaan sejak SMP? *bangga

Oke, berhubung gue jadi ngeri curhat, dari sini gue tekankan, gue gak memfitnah dan bersikap sok. Apa yang gue tau, itu yang gue tulis.

• Kita tidak tau apa yang mau dikatakan orang dan dibalik kata-katanya.
  
• Jangan main nuduh, salah-salah malah jadi FITNAH. Sementara di mana-mana, fitnah adalah perbuatan SALAH TOTAL.
• Keadilan itu susah.
• Apa yang kita lakukan, selalu punya resiko sendiri-sendiri.

Ada hal yang gue sangat sesalkan di kasus ini :
Gue baru aja selesai belajar PKN tentang hak mengeluarkan pendapat. Dan semuanya penuh dengan pasal-pasal yang jujur aja, sekelas males banget ngafalin. Itu pelajaran anak SMP kelas 1, Pak! Bu! Om! Tante! Pemerintah! Indonesia! Dunia!

Alhamdulillah, Allah maha melihat dan mengetahui. Ia tau mana yang salah mana yang benar. Mana yang jujur mana yang hiperbola.

Pada akhirnya, ini semua kembali pada ketidakadilan. Susah menegakkan hukum. Dan jujur aja, gue jadi takut mengemukakan pendapat gue kalo gini jadinya. Ngeri dipenjara, secara gue baru kelas 1. Apa banget dah kalo ampe masuk penjara. Padahal gue inget banget dengan jelas *terpaksa dihapalkan* ttg pasal 28 UUD 1945 yang menjamin kebebasan berpendapat.

Mau curhat salah, gak curhat salah. Susah hidup itu mah. Jangan ampe sakit dah. Sehat kan enak. Boleh deh sakit, asal yang ringan2 aja terus pas di hari ada PR dan gue belom ngerjain. *dijitak

Hidup tidak pernah adil. Karena itu, susah memintanya adil.